Because it is bitter and because it is my heart.

I don't know where to start except I am so fucking angry and disappointed right now.

I am furious.

You know what? If you are a man and you're just looking for some pussy, consider:

Women are people.

People must be treated with respect.

If you don't treat people with respect, you will hurt them, one way or the other.

Once they're hurt, it's very hard to undo the hurt.

To the pussy guy:

Do all of us a fucking favor. The next time you want some pussy, just say, "Hey, I really want to fuck you. Nothing more. I don't want to talk to you afterwards. I don't want to make any kind of future anything with you-- whether it be a weekend a month from now, a dinner tomorrow, a phone call to you. EVER. I just want to fuck you, then... nothing. I don't want to see you, hear you, touch you, talk to you, anything-- ever again."

Don't say instead:

"I'm at peace with you and feel so good about you."

"I can't wait to hold you in my arms, baby."

"I'm so looking forward to all the firsts-- our first kiss, our first dinner together, seeing you come off the plane at the airport."

Just don't say it. Don't.

Just keep your trap shut.

Because you know what? After 30 fucking years of hearing from my father: "Men will say anything just to get you into bed," and me not believing him, me being the eternal optimist, thinking he's wrong! How could anyone ever do that to me? I realize he's right. That son-of-a-gun is 100% correct, on the money.

In the meantime, I'm bitter and hateful and angry.

I hate this. Hate it.